Sunday, 11 January 2009

• My Scariest Nightmare - The Uninvited Contest

  Ummm my scariest nightmare:
  Shucks that is hard to remember...
  Oh, actually, there was one rather recently,
  but it's not in the terms of scary as one would ordinarily think.
  It was a nightmare for ME though.
  I was spending time with my  (at the time) current boyfriend when my ex walked in...
  I don't recall whether or not he was expected,
  but I know I was uncomfortable with his presence...
  He had come there to talk to me about some shindig he invited me to.
  My ex was also irritated and walked out of the room to let me speak to him alone..
  I told my ex that I didnt think it made sense for me to go
  because he's my ex, and both my boyfriend and I would be uncomfortable
  about me going... he proceeds to start yelling..
  saying that he and I are friends before anything...
  I put my relationship before his friendship...
  he thought we had something..
  He wanted me to be there and as a friend I owe it to him that I do..
  I'm being inconsiderate... I just met this other dude..
  I don't really care about him... just fukitol (F it all)!
  [He was crying as he was saying all of this..
  the crying adds to why it's a nightmare because it made me more uncomfortable
  and seemed so unrealistic... well not really... well in this case, yeah
  i.e. it was an unreasonably extreme case...
  seemed like he was overly emotional about something so small.]
  And he like ran out of the room...
  saying f it he's gone, leaving me alone..
  and then i told him to wait... but he didnt of course..
  And I ran after him...
  I left my bf wherever he had been to run after my ex..
  and that to me was nightmarish..
  because:
  1. i didnt run after him when i was with him, so I wudn't now..
  plus I don't run after anyone. It's one of those lessons learned..
  2. Running after him implied that i cared about him...
  enough even to leave my bf behind.. and we already know that
  I don't run after anyone.. so to run after my ex when i don't ordinarily
  run after a person meant that I cared more than i could ever imagine..
  
  Well that dream left me uncomfortable..
  Definitely nightmarish for me... Though I like to keep my exes close
  I always to have the fear of a bf and an ex butting heads..
  (and it's come close a few times)
  And to have to make a choice between a past and present to define
  my future is difficult for me...
  And it was just such an atypical reaction from he and I!
  I was freaked out because I wondered... is this really how I feel?
  How do I feel? How much do I really care about this boy?
  

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