I remember when my homie Jas said that about me.. "Not everyone's like you, you know with the 'good boyfriends' luck." Apparently I tend to have the best luck finding great guys. And I wonder.. How lucky is that? I haven't kept any one of them! LOL.. I have such luck finding great guys.. yet no luck yet in keeping one for good.. Yes, I have some for long, but you can imagine the heartbreak that comes with letting go of someone you think is so great. So now I am single... Single and content. Boyfriendless but not alone.... Another point to this "luck" I seem to have. It's possible that I'm not so picky, It's possible that I'm not so hard to please, low maintenance. It's possible that I have a gift in seeing the good in these guys that so many have little luck seeing. Perhaps the potential is more evident to me than it is to other females. Or perhaps, I just look for something different, more fulfilling and when I find it, I make sure not to let go. I don't play cat and mouse games. I'm a just get it over with and set the mousetrap type girl. Seize and conquer baby! Perhaps... I might just be a "great girlfriend". What if it's not luck I have? Might I just a great girl to be around? They say a good woman has the power to bring the best out of an already great man. Maybe my approach is different.. Maybe my heart is more open. Maybe my soul is more understanding. Maybe... I didn't have the best boyfriend luck always. I can say that I have had the luxury of toxic waste. I can say that the "luck" is sometimes fool's gold. I have been a fool. I have played my cards with jokers parading as kings, parading as Jacks, but didn't really know jack.. about me, about them. I've definitely been burned, hurt, by so called "good" guys.. But maybe, I don't let that destroy me, Burns leave marks, but one can still live. I choose to live my life, and love what I live... Cuz no one can ever live it like me or as me.
I definitely remember tell you that in the room one weekend at sbu... And now i understand where your coming from.. i use to think i had the same luck at times... But your more than right Luck always runs out...
I remember when my homie Jas said that about me..
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I definitely remember tell you that in the room one weekend at sbu... And now i understand where your coming from.. i use to think i had the same luck at times... But your more than right Luck always runs out...